Redundancy looming….what next?

Thanks to the coalition government I will shortly be made redundant and while this is daunting at the same time it opens up a world of new possibilities, which is also daunting now I think about it! Oh!… At least now I will be able to implement one of one of my top five cost-cutting measures and save the lunch, travel and work socialising money that I would have spent. (click here to view article)

I work for an education charity and have always worked for charities or membership organisations and to be quite honest have not had a great time with any of them. And as I sit here typing up my CV and trying to make myself sound as successful and professional as I can without cringing (there are may ways that being British sucks and this is one! Blow my own trumpet? I think not!) I am also thinking about what I want to do with the rest of my employed life. And darn it there is a lot of it still looming, especially as by the time I get anywhere near the retirement age will probably be 70.

There is a little bit of my brain that likes the idea of getting pregnant and having a year out of the rat race, stupid I know, but it is there sitting patiently. There is another part that wants to climb the ladder further and have the kudos associated, and then there is another part that just wants a job where I am treated like a human being and don’t dread going into the office each day. It’s a sad indictment when your ambition is to have a job that you don’t mind getting up for in the morning. I don’t even expect to have one that I look forward to when I wake each day.

So basically I am in my early 30s and I still don’t know what I want to do when I grow up! When much younger I wanted to be a famous author and my ambition was to write a book  that would be studied at A level. I then matured and thought a sensible job that kept me close to literature would be to work in publishing. That dream was shattered when I was told how hard it was to get into and tried and failed. So then I moved onto getting a nice reliable job that pays the rent and the bills and leaves me a little money for socialising, and of course shopping for books, shoes and handbags.

Now after four different jobs since graduation and each associated with bad experiences with regard to bullying and disability discrimination etc. (long stories all of them) all I want is to be treated with a little respect and be allowed to just get on with it.  I am very good at what I do (that was hard to type!) and could be very good at a whole load of other things too. But, when you have a disability people view you as someone who gets better treatment than they do and they become resentful and aggressive. I have recently been through it all again with my current employer. Don’t get excited I am not going to dish the dirt, not my style, I quietly seethe in the corner in a very British way.

Obviously in a time of recession the writing of CVs and the hunting of jobs becomes all that much harder, without the consideration that as a disabled person and as someone who still doesn’t really know what they want to do (although only in the realistic world, in the land of my dreams I am a famous author and writer!) I am not sure what I want to apply for. It is a pity as I had finally, after three and a half years, reached the point with my current employer at which I have a working pattern that suits my visual impairment. I currently work from home three days a week and in the office two days to avoid commuting. This working pattern leaving me with enough energy to do things other than working and sleeping, and now I am going to have to start all over again for the fifth time. Shiny career, I wish, not shitty employer is all I ask for.

So before I start lamenting and ‘oh woe is me’-ing etc. what is the point of this post? Apart from a bit of a vent and a way to clear my head a little and let me focus on my CV what do I want? I think, being practical, it might be time to start working for the ‘dark side’ I have had enough of charities. At least working for the dark side I don’t expect to be treated well, but may get a better salary. Plus charity and public sector jobs are decreasing by the minute thanks to government cuts.

Buts actually what I really want is the dream. (Sod reality for a while and muse on my ideal job.) What would that be? It has to have an element of writing involved whether as an author of novels or writing columns/articles, or even marketing copy at a stretch. I started this blog as a way to get back into writing and to test out different styles and ideas and am loving every second of it. As I read on someone else’s blog, it is what I look forward to doing as my treat at the end of a working day, my chance to be me and experiment.

In an ideal world I would write novels and be a social commentator for a national newspaper or publication.

I didn’t realise that second bit until now – see the power of the blog in action! Trying to explain yourself to an unknown audience can bring clarification. So thanks guys appreciate all your help, you are great!

Still, back to reality again, that isn’t going to pay the bills any time soon (I won’t say ever, just in case). So back to the CV and trying to make running national events and marketing campaigns more interesting than they are in reality.

You have all been a great help thanks.

Paige x

6 Responses to “Redundancy looming….what next?”
  1. Good luck! I am a few years younger than you but totally feel you’re strife in not knowing what to do when I grow up. I think as long as we are trying then that is all you can do. And by the sound of it you are doing better than you giver yourself credit for… I certainly like your writing style 🙂
    But please don’t tell me how hard certain careers are… I feel like there is such a long road ahead!
    Emily x

  2. Lucy Harper says:

    Hi Paige,

    Sometimes it takes a while to realise it but good will always come out of bad. Why not try a business where you never need to commute, gain amazing insight into who you are and what makes you tick and surround yourself with entrepreneurial spirit. My business has transformed my life and that of my family and I never in a million years would have thought we could be where we are at now!

  3. Lily's World says:

    Your writing style is fantastic!!! I wouldn’t be surprised if you end up writing a book (And to be honest, I really hope you do one day!)

    Having felt the employment problems in the UK, all you can do is apply for jobs and know that whatever you are meant to be doing, you will.

    So chin up and keep writing 🙂

    Lily xx

  4. lowsaltfoods says:

    Do you still want to write a book? Then start writing a bit each day, in a non-professional capacity. Think about what sort of book you want to do. Maybe now is a good time to get pregnant. Then you’ll have plenty of time to write. 🙂

  5. lowsaltfoods says:

    On a more general note, I have never know what I want to do until I am 70. Truth is, no one can see the future. The best thing you can do is to do what interests you at the moment, within reason. Don’t identify a specific role that you want to do but what activities in previous roles have you really enjoyed doing.

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